No, it's not that she's afraid of losing you.
She's hurting because you are.

CARA'S BIRTHDAY PARTAYYE.
Cara: Ariel
RJ & Qiulin: Dexter and Dee Dee
Yan&Janice: Buttercup and Blossom
Wen Loong: Pirate
Matthew: Indiana Jones
Joe Wei: Jedi
Ting: Tinkerbell
Maxine: Athena, the greek goddess
Kai: Zorro
Sherman: Willy Wonka
Gayle: Emily the strange
Tracy: Juliet
Josh: Ryan (high school musical)
WQ: L
Ash & Ben: Waiters, aka blood slaves for Cara.
WenJia and Reuben: Mr. & Mrs. Smith. (?)
Gwen and Shuyi: King and Queen of hearts
ME: (Can't you tell?) Daphne from Scooby Doo.































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Yesterday was Cara's and Gayle's brithday. Go wish them a belated birthday if you haven't wished them already. (:

HAPPY SIXTEENTH, CARAAA.
Thanks for being there for me through the social storms and emo days last year. (: I probably wouldn't have survived without you. You my bestie in school.

So we blind folded her from the bus stop all the way up to the round tables, slapped a card onto her back, safety-pinned it there, stuck a tiara in her hair and gave her a pink disney princess balloon. (: We also stuffed a flower under the what-that-called on her shoulder. I have to get a picture. Haha, Cara teared, she did. She said that this was her best birthday ever.

We proud. :D

She had to walk around with a card stuck onto her back and a tiara on her head for the whole day. EVERYONE knew it was her birthday. Hah. Throughout the day, people wrote on her back and we constantly worried about the card falling off. Haha.

That's not all though! It's partaye time tmr(: We've been anticipating this for the longest time. We promise it'll be a bashh. YAY! I'm the official photographer, so imma be snapping pictures the whole night.

To people who haven't decided on their costumes: You die. Think! Think!
Alright, I confess I haven't confirmed mine yet. I will soon though! Haha, shh.

Ah yes. Yesterday was such a lonnng day. I was at school from 6:50 and lessons ended at 2. Rushed over to SWIRL to celebrate Gayle's birthday and rushed back to school at 2:50 for AEP. Was done with AEP at 5:30 or so and rushed to Bugis to meet Amanda. Had dinner, went to DIVA, rushed to church. Had band prac from 7:15 to 9:30. Then I (finally) went back home and collapsed.

So yes, as I promised myself, Imma sleep now! :D
Wake me up when dinner starts.

Do you ever feel alone?
Despite all the friends you have, despite the lover, despite yourself.
Today, for no reason at all, I felt alone.
The laughter wasn't within my wave length, everyone seemed so far away.
I was confused.
Apprehensive about the people I'm close to, and all.
It's not like I've never felt this way before, but today was the first painful day I've had in months.
(I'm referring to emotions.)
Perhaps school just wears me down.
Perhaps it's just the hormones.
Maybe I'm just having a bad day.
I brush it off and tell myself it doesn't really matter,
That I really am loved,
But I know that I neeed to be needed.
I know that I need attention, security, comfort.
A hug,
An "I love you,"
Something.
It's me, and I know.
I'm not independent;
Who am I kidding?
The only problem is who I'm relying on.
I hate feeling insecure, I hate feeling unloved, I hate feeling alone.
I wanna be happy all the time, be a source of comfort, a listening ear, an understanding friend.
I hate being weak, I do.
I want to be strong, to depend on God all the time,
To love.
Yeah, I know,
What am I doing about it?
I'm praying. I'll be who I wanna be.
I'll be loved for who I am, and not something else.

One day.