Today, I realised that I am an invisible friend.

This will sound really whiny, but since I'm invisible, I don't think anyone will be able to read my magical invisible thoughts. I honestly can't imagine what I'm doing wrong. I mean, I ask people out, ask them about their week, listen when they rant, care about them, try to be there when they need me, etc. Why don't I have a girl friend who'd do that simple little thing for me?

Don't you take pity. I'd hate that. I just miss the times when I had sisters to really talk to. If you were to ask me if I'd be friends with a carbon copy of myself, I'd reply with a resounding YES. I'd like to have a friend who'd be willing to talk to me all night over tears. I'd like to have a friend who'd shop with me and watch gossip girl/privileged/vampire diaries/glee with me. I'd like someone to care, like I do a friend. Be willing to protect me and fight through something with me, stand by me. I know I'd be willing to do that, if anyone actually came to me.

As the days go by, I just feel like maybe I wasn't meant to have friends. Maybe I am really just invisible in people's thoughts, no matter what I do. I'm not saying no one cares about me. I love my family, and I'm SO thankful for . But really, a girl just needs her girl friends sometimes.

Don't mind me.
I'm sure you can't see me anyway.