The musical was wonderful. Even though we put a lot into this musical, it was all worth it. Doesn’t matter how many people turned up, doesn’t matter what was written on the response forms. No, not really. It was such a privilege to share what we believe. I’m so glad that we managed to touch our lives, but yes, we do all things through Christ. Without Him, nothing is possible. I know that it isn’t our job to change hearts, because that’s impossible. Only God can do that; and He does every day.

Yesterday was rather bad. Thank you to everyone who came up to me to tell me that it was alright. Yes, He sees the heart, not just what’s outside. I was so tired, but again, I have to remember who I’m doing these things for. It’s not for me. I do this in the service of God, praying that I may bring glory to His name.

I am not perfect; in fact, I’m really far from it. By His grace, I am growing every day. I’m becoming stronger and better. This is who I am: me. I sincerely try to better myself, I sincerely try to change. I just need some understanding and patience? The Father will deal with me in His good timing. I won’t try to say that I’m a good Christian, for I am so small and so imperfect. In time, you’ll see. God will change me and make me beautiful, in His sight.

Sometimes I think that I’ll get too used to pretending that everything’s alright. I’m afraid that I’ll get too used to pushing everything into my subconscious, forgetting the bad things I’ve gone through. I don’t want to forget you, so I’m afraid. You will fade, without me consciously doing anything. It’s self-preservation. So decide, and stay true to your decision.

Thank you to the girls for the daisy (which I thought was a sunflower), Amanda and Shona, for the chocolates. Thank you to Wenjia, Janice and Qiu for making it on Saturday. It really means alot to me.

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Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lyin here tonight
Wishin I was by your side
Cuz when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life